Sigh* I finally got most of my school work made up, so I'm back on track.  I'm really never about the PSAT I gotta take tomorrow. :S I hope I do ok.  I really don't have much to say only thing is that I got alot of pictures I drew for awhile. I may pull them together into a art sketch dump about 2 of them though.  Lately I've been  interested in mohawks which I really adore.  I saw so may like the fauxhawk and a chelesa hawk :] which made me consider about getting a mohawk lol.  I love how people with mohawks stand out (in a good way, that makes me cheerful when seeing them :] ) I saw a kid at my school with a green mohawk and I squeed.  I went over, talked to him, I told him that I adored his green mohawk so much. he looked very flattered when I said that which I'm glad I did because it's great that everyone has a different personalitly and a way they can express themselves.  Gosh I wanna mohawk so badly now! >X3 Even Bill from Tokio Hotel has a faux mohawk now (even though I miss his puffy lion hair.  :[  )
  

I'm so happy!!!  I have been drawing for about 3 hours, which that is a mirage lol.  I have been having issues which I never finished telling the whole story the other day. Basically in short terms, I have been sick and I had a period of time which I lost my imagination, but that was I thought at that time.  It all started with me just bored to death and really wanted something to do, I mean I was so bored that I even cleaned my room and bathroom, top to bottom.  I grabbed my stained up sketchbook out of my bag [which was a complete bullshit, I never drawn at that time..  maybe depression, dunno why.] 

I decided to draw my personal and well known char, my fursona Ester.  I couldn't even get a single line right.  After that I started freaking out like cold stone turkey. I was losing it.  I really been daze after that then I was listening to my Tokio Hotel Cd I brought I started drawing! :D yay!!!  * In a retarded sarcastic way*  harhahthahthahtahthhahthahthh!!!!! >.>

O.o XD

Well, again with my progess of getting better, I have to take my meds. :/ I hate it. seriously it has made me feel like shit, I wish meds didn't have these effects after taking them. Right now i'm just watching a movie about the moon hitting earth and killing us all. I really lost interest in it, I love movies like this but this time I had to back down. I really can't say much but just to say that Tokio Hotel kicks ASS!

Yoga is very enjoyable! I mean I tried it today, It helps you relax lol and it works! I need to that more often, I never thought it will be this fun you know?! I keep thinking about my vorries but if you do yoga, it releases the stuggles. That's what it did for me. :D I'm so happy now!!!

Guess what mood I'm in for?! Time to tell some stories about my furries! Well today just about Ester today, and maybe some of Zeroshame's life too. I'm in that flattering crave mood again lol, but I don't think I'm going to type in from one person view.

................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................ WWut?! No story?!! lol. Ok apparently I  can't not tonight, but when I come home from school.

 

 Today I had a real social talk today. I mean In a school where I don't know people much [which is about 3,000 students tending at a freaking 3 story high story makes it very scary. lol] I really felt ok, but I won't really be very social.. lol I'm like that, If I know yah very well or just want to get to know you I will nonstop talk. It's different in other cases, I usually seem anti-social, I don't really like talking or anything like that. I'm just me, kepting to my self but It's hard to understand why I'm like this now. 2 summers ago I was very talkable and loved talking to everyone, I even known almost everyone In my old school. When I moved It changed, I became very anti-social at school[ that's where
I don't like it anymore, dunno.] Never really thought about this tell today but I know I will open up her sooner or later, Takes time, you know?


I thought about what I learned In class about what I'm reading. We were listening to some songs that I used to listen to when a pup. Ha I never knew That I would remember these songs: Waterfalls by TLC Crossroads by Bone Thugs N' Harmony. I loved these songs because It talks about life. These songs where relating what we were reading. It inspired me to write poems today. :] *gasp* I'm very emotional today but It's a great turn.
 

"Slicene in CryoWinter"

Mother is calling you from her womb,
A shattering desepare of a abnormal host seeping inside,
Pathogens are his demons calling in pain,

Born in a life of the chosen ones,
Not a clue how to solve his breath,
Stripes are his branding of slaverity,

Snowy fur in the Winds chasing his weary roars at night,
A beauty of all amoung the animals,
A blessing,
A curse,
A tiger,

Hoping to find out why shadows chatter in judgement,
A lonesome creature in a court of choices,
Guity or Innocent,

To Labist if not perfect, thrown to thrash,
If prefect, Luxury of grace,
Bengals stare at the unknow mirror of themselves,
Never know who Is normal or beyond,
The living statues of time it,

This poem I did on "White" Tigers which are a tiger hybrid of Bengal/Sibieran. Just find some info on them and history and this will relate on how White tigers are made, judged, and the fact it's animal that people don't realize what's happening to them. :c
 



 

Days has pasted and so far as always school has been okay, but when I was on school the first day, a immature kid kept bothering me. He kept harassing me about my looks are and was I into dudes. lol I got pissed first but I politely answered his questions. I said I'm like this because I love being different and told him that not all females are going act female like most of them would think*

*Just to clear this up I act more male despite being kinda gender-confused and being found of cross-dressing, I don't It's wrong. Everyone Is different In all kinds of ways, I don't that everyone's is a robot, just the same.

I told him that If I was into so called society's law of love, I wouldn't be the kind of person just to judge them of there ways. I would love them if male or female and don't give a rat's ass what the would think of me. Seriously who does he think, I know everyone has a opinion and can't change the fact that everyone is going have a different answer, So I ignore him in class and kept doing my work. Later in the week, he kept on with the smart remarks and even pull my desk back to his just to ask me more. *sigh* Geez he must really wanted to see if I was going crack again but I didn't.

But last friday something amazing happened. He asked me can he see my artwork and I did, he said he loves my art. :D that made my day no smart remarks that day and even got better! In my last class he smile in the sweetest way and said "hi". I think he wants to be my friend.
So you can't judge people of what they say, think, looks, or anything that relates to that. I should be the punished, I judged him by what he said and act, I should never do that again, it's not right and try to be a better person.

School is okay right now but I'm beat. I got to walk a three story building and out to a small career center. :/ seriously I gotta have some leg muscles right about now lol, instead of complaining I show be happy, because now I can give some effort to exercise. Yeah I don't like exercising but I need to to rid of a couple of pounds.

My classes are going great but I got to study tonite for some quizzes, also I have some time to plan things out to straighting out my routine of laziness. I wish I was in college right now instead of high school. :x